Yes! I am still here!
My daily routine is quiet now. Mornings are spent sending my resume out for seasonal jobs. It feels like a lifetime ago when I last updated a resume. For fifteen years, I was a stay-at-home mom and loved every minute of it. Since then it feels like I am constantly reinventing myself. I love the challenge of a new adventure and the opportunity to learn and experience new skills.
After listening to the book, The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer, I am drawn to learn more about Michael's experiences with life. I am now listening to Living Untethered and The Untethered Soul. Both books have helped me to relax into my destiny and to soften my acceptance of the universe's plans for me. It doesn't take away the moments of fear that grab me without warning, but I feel I have better tools to ease the pain and take it as it is. A moment of fear filled with pain is all it is; I am learning to accept it as another way energy flows through my body.
I am well aware that I still have some blockages in my soul that need healing, but honestly, I don't know what they are. I feel I was able to crumble and shred the pain of my childhood and marriage, but it feels like there is something deeper that my conscience is not ready to bring to the surface. I am not giving up. I am fully committed to solving "The Gila Puzzle."
You know those moments that open your heart with pure joy and make you laugh? Those little moments that make you giggle with simple pleasure.
That is my reaction when I click on my cleats and start my bike ride on Seven Lakes Drive in Harriman State Park. Getting back on my bike reignites my passion for speed.
Biking on Seven Lakes Drive is like hiking in the woods. The road is diverse, with many challenging hills and descents, providing a good challenge and opportunity for a nice, speedy ride. During the week, it is a quiet place to ride with many miles to explore. Maybe I can take my bike with me in my next "vehicle home," which would be a fantastic bonus.
Can one be addicted to freedom? I feel restless, dreaming of the open road, music, and adventures. It might be that I am done with most of my loose ends. The rest of "taking care of business" will happen after the closing of my home.
I have a few tweaks that will improve my van setup. I am grateful that Mike is always happy to help me. I am rearranging the front seat and making some changes and improvements. Jackery is sending me a new power station to replace the defective one.
With a few new tweaks, the need to test the new Jackery, and the thirst to be at one with nature, I decided to head north to explore the Adirondacks. I found it hilarious that the first six letters of Adirondacks spell my boys' names: Adi, my oldest son, and Ron, my youngest son.
I opened the Verizon coverage map to see if there is an area in the Adirondacks that will put me off the grid. Ferris Lake Wild Forest is only about four and a half hours away, which is not bad at all. I need to drive for a few hours to see how the new Jackery (my power station) charges while driving. That was the problem I had with the one I am replacing, it was not charging efficiently when I plugged it into my car.
I hope for a cool night and dry skies...
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